Heros in my life......

As every child,my first hero was defenitly my Father......then the chidren's magazines gave me a looot of other heros...the flying,disappearing,fighting,saving, heros....I screamed under bed "Dinkaaaa save me from Amma's slapss"......i expected Magic malu to do wonders in my examzz...i wondered, y Mayavi is not doing any hanky pankys to  make me escape from roaring teachers....i dreamed, playing with the haggard mougly.....then came the MAN gang..superman,spiderman,batsman etc...next hero on row was my neighbour brother...you know he cld drive bycycle,without holding handle..he could make boomer into a bubble for minutes....he cld touch the nose with tounge....my school days gave me another hero....the headmaster of our school....He was an ujala man,alwaya clad in white shirt & dhothi.....he imparted the tricks to find root & ratio so easily....he made the mental ratio between students and him an equal one....he was the first person who inclasped me and said "Baby your poem is gud.write more & more"my teen age found the fine hero in the actor who did that romantic film...i pasted his photo on my bedroom wall,i kissed it...i imagined marrying him,flying overseas for honeymoon!!!!but he was gone from me along with my 18....and... now....now am searching badly for a hero....what a hero means now to me?i dont want him to make wonders,no need to help me for finding"x"'.but i need him to find solutions for much more serious questions of life....i want him to whisper in my ears"u r born to win" when world says, she cant do it... i would be happy. if i could talk to him about the book i read,dish i cook,and the loan rate....i hate "do it",but love"letz do it"....and i want him to be hero,not only for me,but also for alll.....as i grew up i lost all my heros somewhere...but now i long for a hero to whom i could share about all my X- Heros!!!

swapnangalude neermaathalam..........

10aam vasilaanu achan aa pusthakam enikku kondutharunnath...Kandappozhe amma theerthu paranju,ee praayathil ith ivalkk vaayikkan kodukkunna prashnamilla....pakshe,ente kochu manasile vaashi amma ariyaathe poyi,njan ammyude uchamayakkangal prayojanapeduthi pusthakam vaayichu theerthu!!!!palathu manassilayilengilum oru karyam manasilurachu...kadhakaariyude peru.."MADHVIKUTTY"....annu njan olichirunn vaayichu theerthath Rukminikkoru paavakutty enna pusthakamayirunnu....pinne palathum thedi pdich vaayichu...pala kadhakalum chindhippichu,chilath karayippichu...chliath vaayich njan aalochichu...ith ente kadhayalle??ennodoppam kadhakariyodulla aaradhanayum valarnnu.....chuvanna valiya pott eppozho maanju,erunda neelamulla mudiyizhakal shirovastrathinullil maranju,,,pakshe aa aksharangalodulla aaradhana oru maattavumilllthe thudarnnu... pranayathe patti aaveshathode samsaricha enne kootukaar kaliyaakki...nee endha Madhavikuttiyo?purame paribhavichengilim rahasyamayi aa kaliyaakkal njan aaswadichu....ernakulam kadavanthrayil avar thaamasamaaki ennarinj kaanan manass vembhi...aa parisaram vare chenn thirichu ponnu....sneham maathram thulumbhiyirunna aa shabhdham kaathukalil muzhangi...ennengilum kaanumbol enne dhathedukkuvuo enn chodhikkanam ennu kochu manasillurachu...pakshe orikkalum onnnum chodhikkalundaayillaa......avasaanam  sundaramaaya aa mizhiyina adanju....oduvil varshangalkku shesham njan poyi... kadhakaliloode orupaad kothippicha aa mannilekk, aa veetilekk....pakshe purampokkk bhoomi pole thonnippicha avidam nte swapnangalokke thakarthu......pookal pozhichirunna neermaathalam polum avashathayilaanu...thirichirangumbhol njan aashwasichu....avar kadha parayukayaayirunnu.....irul veezhunna idanazhikalula Naalappadum 12 varshathilorikkal maathram poovidunna Neermaathalavum kannadi vellamindaayirunna kulavum nithyavum thiri thelikkunna sarppa kaavum sneham maathram vilambhunna veettukkarum ellam kadahakal... enteyum palarudeyum kaumara kaalath orupaad kothippicha sundara lokathinte kadakal...manoharamaya kettukadakal......

deepavali....

i hv never celibrated Diwali...but i luv too....i wld luv to light lamps & place it in & outside my house....switch off every lights & sit silently...wow!!!but the kerala ELECTRICITY BOARD is helping me to njoy diwali every day....sitting with candle in dark.....and bck to diwali, another thing is sweets...mmmmgg.......smell of ghee,yellow,red coloure(almost) different shapes....small small boxes from Sreekrishna sweeta...!!!also crackers.. i always wonder y,my tamil,brahmin friends nvr invited me 4 diwali....wn i rang them all f them were in theaters!!!i hv never been to theater by onam or vishu.....but i  decided...iam gonna  blast nxt Diwali,....4 nw all njoy ur movies......